Thursday, July 28, 2005

vapor

sometimes when i awaken from a dream i can’t quite remember what it was. i almost can but i can’t. i feel an image but can’t quite see it. or it appears for a fraction of a second but just as i reach out to touch it, it vanishes between my fingers. i almost remember it but the dream is no longer there.

yet it feels so close, as close as if i had just walked out of a room and the door closed behind me and that closed door now prevents my seeing what i’ve just walked out of. so close and yet not there.

that’s how my life feels sometimes, that i am so close to its making sense to me, and then it doesn’t.

and then sometimes i’m not even close.